i had a bad day.

last night studied till 2am for maths test.
in return i got only 3.5/13.
what's wrong with me?!
felt ultimately demoralised.
saw mr ang outside the stuff room while i was handing in maths stuff.
he said to me: " work hard ah weishan."
waolau.
i just feel like dying.
its not that im not.
and i dont think i studied the wrong way.
do i deserve a 3.5 out 13 marks?
i read thru the notes, practiced the tutorial qns again.
wrong meh?

i may not work as hard as those hardworking student,
but im trying to work at least.

the pe teachers are chasing after me to get me to do napha.
just fuck it can.
do you ppl have a heart?
my leg injury alr caused me to have a pair of unbalanced legs,
and its all caused by that pe lesson.
go think abt it,
the medical fee is not cheap alright.
my mum n dad print money izzit?

you pple have REAP on monday at 5pm,
the girls doesnt have it.
just becos u ppl have 3 hrs of boredom?
and we were made to stay back with you people.
fucking pissed with the decision.
too bad, we're the minorities.

so much of the rantings.

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cut my hair.
its freaking ugly previously.
doesnt make much difference thou.
mum dint even notice.
just snip off the long bunch of hair at the back.
saw evelyn. (HI!)

went back alone.
standing at a corner,
cornered by strangers.
spaced out.
not even thinking.
just stoned throughout the journey.

im just bad with making decision.
and in the end,
i made bad decisions.
today just reflects it totally.

giving up?
partially.
hate it.

//runs

i forgot to msg u right!
i forgot right!
cos i too busy for the whole freaking day.
SO SORRY.
but nvm,
i will make up for you..
nah.
this entry is just for you...
and ONLY you.
maybe ohyuanping also dont have this honour lor.
bet u will cry after seeing this!!
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HAPPY SWEET 18 JOYCE!






love you,
shan.

ps:
i spent 40mins and forgo my time to do physics HOR!

ytd went to meet up with my sec sch friends.
9 turned up.


we took 51 pics.
and only 12 out of 51 you can see me in it.
and 5 out of 12 are grp photos!
all i can see from my cam was
ping, huilin, joyce, gen,
ping huilin, joyce gen.. .. .. ..


and some random pics.

time spent tgt was great.

saw one of my pri sch friend,
WOW!
he is so shuai now!
-drools-
lol.
:X

went to damien hse for mahjong.
initially wanted to study.
end up msn-ing and helping gary out with his tiles.
17 missed calls from my parents.
4 of us cabbed hm.

:)

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supposed to meet ping to study.
was too weak to keep myself awake.
i dont know what's wrong with me.

i have not done anything for the whole bloody day.
:(

//runs

back.
as usual,
sch is fucking dreadful.
and now they decided to lock the gate at 7.50.
was swearing and cursing to myself as i rushed to sch this morning.
just fuck it can.
anyway they're not annoucing anything impt.
they just grumble abt the late coming problem before the national anthem.

i hate myself for getting into jc.
i know im not gg to make it.
never ever.
great.
i will be dump into poly.
looks,
nobody is gonna pity me.

failure.
totally.

//runs

weishan is a hardworking girl.


couples making out in bk.


joyce is a hardworking girl too.


WOOHOO.
pretty lucky today.
initially wanted to catch pirate of the caribean after studying.
then decided to go sing k.
called gen,
she was with cherie at starsbuck.
okies,
in the end every was cancelled.
SORRY!
lol.

we went pasam malam and eat junk food.
sat down at some void deck.
guess who we saw?
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LUO LAO SHI!

chatted for quite awhile.
i was like whining abt what shld i do if i fail my a level.
im so afraid of being condemned in the poly or sth.
she was right lar.
in the first place i alr know i dont like to study,
why do i even choose jc.
her suggestion was,
im still young,
just study lor.
-.-
we decided to meet up next friday again.
CANT WAIT TO MEET UP WITH MISS FOO.

guess who we saw next?
MY DEAREST XUEYAN!

hugged and parted.

went home.




TODAY is A GOOD DAY.
always felt so good to met up with the old friends
and old teachers,
talking abt the good old days.
LOL.

Gonna study hard tml.
i REALLY REALLY REALLY cant SEE my FUTURE lei!

//runs

went for the hockey farewell party.
watched the video done by small cheryl.
got back my $15,
ate the food.
it marked an end for hockey for me, for us.

while watching the video,
many memories was brought back.
throughout the journey i met alot of wonderful and cute people.
esp the girls,
im glad to know all of you!
(:

hockeyhockey!
i miss those trainings.

been slacking for the past one week.
dont know what to do with myself.
SLACKER!

i shall study out tml.

//runs

wow.
cramps hit me again.
ytd wasnt able to go back to sch for econs essay review.
today went to take the early dismissal form right after the first lecture.
it hurts so much that i felt so weak.
went home only after econs tutorial.
i cabbed home.

DAMN!
i missed the physics lessons.
so afraid that i might not be able to catch up with the class.

hopefully tml will be a better day,
thou it will have a bad start (need to make up for pe tml morning.)
i just hope that the cramps will go away.

going to prepare the maths lecture stuff.

heard that im in the list of value-added student,
but well,
its only an AO
moreover, other results fall too.
there's still a LONG way to go.
jiayou WEISHAN!

//runs

learned a new term: big hit chicken
in chinese: da(4) da(3) ji(1) - big blow.
did super badly for econs essays.
and did ultra badly for econs.
haha.
wth.
in the end, im only satisfied with my physics result.
hais.

//runs

tio ps on thurs,
tio ps again on fri.
so angry.
probably that's what best friends are for,
end up i still cant get angry with them.

mood hasnt been good.
no reason.

spent my weekends with my cousin!
went bugis with her on friday to get her bag.
i like her bag!
sat was spending most of the time clearing homeworks.
slack, sleep.
after dinner,
went popular to get my 5 years series.
went pasam malam, walk walk.
bro share his starbucks mocha frap with us.
bought her to my grandma hse.
end up eating again!
suppose to have night talks.
i end up pigging.
went town today.
just walk ard.
was looking for the lego necklace.
not found.
she bought her tofu man series.
had thick toast.
headed home.

no life no life.

//runs

getting pissed off so easily nowadays.
mayb i'll lock this place up.
need some personal space.
always being so bloody kuku head to have not fight for myself whenever im angry.
coward.
me.

//runs

milk run today.
we're the motivators.
kinda happy when ppl said thanks and gave us a big smile.
but obviously some ST PAT's guys treat us as idiots/monkeys.
thanks for all the crook comments.
i appreciate them.

super duper tired.
my throat and my legs hurt now.
how am i supposed to go sing k tml?
photos will be uploaded soon.
im waiting, sisi...

oh ya,
by the way haben wish sisi in a more formal way lei.
forgetful.
so sorry!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR GIRL!
no mickey for YOU.
:X

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i wanna get this.
I MUST!

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got this from friendster:

1 letter from your name .
S
1 thing that you are thinking .
legs hurt

1 place you would like to be now .
lala land

1 thing that is infront of you .
tissue paper

1 name that is in your mind .
none

1 thing that make you go mad .
overslept

1 thing that make your day today .
to sit down and rest my legs

1 thing that make you mad today .
some st pat's guys

1 thing that attracts you .
shoes

1 thing that make you sad .
losing someone close

1 person you wish to see .
one friend

1 of your idol .
nqmm

1 song that you just heard .
nqmm, goodbye, good luck.

1 movie that you had seen lately .
the last one was x-men3

1 guy/girl that attracts you lately .
none?

1 person you last seen .
sisilia halim

1 person you last went out with .
the class girls?

1 person that you cant forget abt .
oh yuanping

1 style of your favourite .
unisex

1 food that you love to eat .
SOTONG

1 gift that you want to give to somebody .
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1 thing that you cant forget, 1 yr before .
i cant rmb.

ytd did the last paper.
as usual.
i just knew what im going to get for my result.
boohoo.





after the exam we went party world to sing.
due to lack of slp,
i got very giddy after that.
had pasta for lunch.
went home.

lazy to update.

bye.
//runs